Nowhere to run

I guess I’m back to square one. This all started fourteen years ago when I was building our house and I couldn’t walk across a room without gasping for air and getting so dizzy, I thought I would faint. That’s exactly where I am today. My arms and legs feel like lead. Just to reach across a table to get something seems overwhelming. I fall asleep sitting up. I know my adrenal glands have bottomed out. I went to my GP yesterday and he sent me home with B12 shots. They have never had any affect on me, but I accepted them. Gave myself one yesterday afternoon and fell asleep sitting straight up. I wonder if they can have an opposite affect on some people. If so, I would be in that small percentile.

So, my next move is a visit to the cardiologist. That was my first move fourteen years ago. But I’m tired. So if the tests are ok, I guess I’ll just live with what I’ve got.

Travel is easy enough as long as I go first class and have wheelchairs at every airport, but there are so many things that I miss…..being able to really play with my grandchildren, dancing, riding horses, friends that have fallen to the wayside, even chores around the house!!

But I have to accept the things I cannot seem to change.

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